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I'm too use to being around people and things to do...I'm too use to having to take care of things that the second I have a minute to breathe I feel like collapsing. It might be just wired into me, or maybe I'm just doing what I usually do. Who knows. Oh well, anyways, it's you and me tonight. I'm convinced that I will at least write something tonight! Whether it be this or an actual story or hell maybe even a free verse poem. Shit, I may be even able to figure out who "I" am. lol. Yeah right huh?

You want to know the truth though? I am a "Pretend" house wife.  I hate what I do, but I try to do my best at it. (This has nothing to do about my daughter...I LOVE HER!) My husband makes my life feel like a job and trying to get around that is the hardest. I make sure everything is in perfect fucking order for when he steps in the door. Make sure the house is in order, make sure I have exercised, showered, and too in order. I always think to myself...who lives like this? Though, I am sure once I have my degree I can get one step forward. I'm not saying he's a bad husband, I love him to death. He means the world to me, and I would never deny that....but sometimes I feel like I'm being judged with everything I do. Drives me nuts. And since this is my outlet...WTF...I should just say it right? I miss having a job. I miss "contributing" to our family we have made together. I hate that I make no actual "dollar" value for what I do! I know I do my part, but really no it doesn't feel like it. Not the way he puts it. Yeah, I do dishes, laundry, trash, clean...take care of our daughter...make sure the car is clean...really does the list end? lol. I still don't feel like I do "enough" Maybe this is a challenge I'm suppose to overcome. And hopefully I will overcome it. Maybe it all just takes time...

"Oh shit, shit.." Lol

-Maggie
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Everything.
  • Reading: Running

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IvyLee
Maggie
United States
Current Residence: Of No Where
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: A lot
Favourite style of art: Photo Manipulation
MP3 player of choice: RCA Lyra
Wallpaper of choice: Silas. I made it ^^
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:icondimensionseven:
DimensionSeven Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2008
Hello, dear random deviant! :wave:
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jjuuhhaa Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2007
Hello :salute:
Thank you for the :+fav:
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Beautifull-Freak Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2007
You were tagged [link]
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Twilightdreamer245 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2007  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi =D

I tagged you! Bwahaha. Yeah, see the journal.

^^ Meep!
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Starartx Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank you. i like guitars too ^_^
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SKpunk Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2007
sup ivy
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jjuuhhaa Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2007
Hello :salute:
Thank you for the support :thanks:
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HasperJasper Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2007
Thaaanks for the :+fav: :batman:!!!

:D
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