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Literature
Soaring
I can feel your pulse stagger through my body
Here are the ups and downs again
Soar away with me, why don't you?
Let everything you have with you go
Let it fall all to the ground, why don't you
Call my name, baby
Hold my hand through all of this
And run with me through all this torn up land laying between us
For the longest time you sealed your lips with needle and thread
Now I pry at them loosening each end until all has disappeared
So feel my pulse stagger right on through you
Pierce your skin so that it makes you weak in the knees
Let go of everything you have
Take my hand
So we can soar right through this
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Literature
Box Of Hate
Little, little pieces lay in this box
I’ve went through this too many times
I’m counting back the days that I had wasted
And this cigarette is still burning in this ash tray
Boxes, cards, love letters
Burn them underneath all these painted smiles
Was it the timing?
Because years have come and gone
And I’m still blurry with my vision.
I wore your jewelry last night
The ring was loose, the necklace was cracked
Your old fitted jeans fell off my body
This bottle is half empty
And there is still no call
No voice
               No picture
                                
Quiet, quiet now
This Romeo and Juliet have seen the devil
Sailed through the sea of fire
And left each other with the sight of land
Time to say good bye
One said leaving with th
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Literature
It Starts Like This...
It starts like this
Just a hit here and there
Just a drink, you’ll have yourself another one
Can you even feel yourself?
It starts like this
You make your silent cries
Lies, lies, lies
Where is your truth?
You play Cry Wolf like it’s a game
You’re losing
I’m finally winning.
It starts out like this
You put the needle to your fragile arm
Make it your last pit stop for the day
Your numb and out
Don’t touch, just leave
That’s your sign written out
It starts out like this
Story after story
Drug after drug
Drink after drink
It starts out like this
But it always ends with one more silent Good Bye
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Literature
Shooting Up The Last Of It
Make these thoughts soar up into the sky
Reach the stars, travel to the sun
Shoot up, leave me behind
I’m done, I swear, I’m through
I saw this play out from start to end
Replayed some lengths and tried to go back to fix it all
Words wouldn’t matter
Feelings wouldn’t either
I held your hand, you held mine
We looked at each other with devious eyes
I wanted you and you took me for all that I was worth
Leave me behind on this dusty road
You have a whole other life
Crash these dreams and hopes of mine
Smear it all over the floor in front of us
Then clean your hands free of charge.
I know what you are now
I won’t shed another tear for you or your cause
Make these thoughts soar up into the sky
Reach the stars, travel to the sun
Shoot up, leave me behind
I’m done, I swear, I’m through
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Literature
My Count To Ten
I can count to ten
Cover my eyes and ears
But in the back of my mind the thoughts of me and you still linger
The taste, the touch, the feelings
Still, they feel ripped from inside of me
Laying next to the curb with the rest of garbage that life collects
Questions upon questions I have for you
Many of them will never seek an answer
My mind scatters
Do you feel the same as I?
Angry and confused
Lost and unwilling to step up?
I can feel my body pick up speed
Running from one to another
My image dries up beneath the sun
And you can see right through it.
I would hate to break this barrier that we both put up
Starting with me, ending with you
I would hate to make this ground between us more uneven
But I need to speak the final words.
(Good bye)
I can count to ten
Cover my eyes and ears
But in the back of my mind the thoughts of me and you still linger
The taste, the touch, the feelings
Still, they feel ripped from inside of me
Laying next to the curb with the rest of garbage that life co
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Literature
This New Direction
This liquid is god like to me
Rushing through my veins
Spilling my insides out
Blurring my sense of wrong or right
It never was set to start out this way
Though, underneath all this clear glass
It was always meant to be this way
It was never played out to be like this
This new direction just lit me up like a match
This smoke runs in and out of me
Take it in, hold it,
One, two, three, four, five
Come on, you can make it.
I never wanted it to fall like this
One hit and it’s all down to the ground
It was never played out to be like this
This new direction just lit me up like a match

This touch makes me stop dead in my tracks
Each look, each kiss
You take me in your arms
Intoxicated, smothered
It never was set to start out this way
Though, underneath all this clear glass
It was always meant to be this way
It was never played out to be like this
This new direction just lit me up like a match
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Literature
Fireworks
They shot up into the sky
Making sparks of different colors that fade into the sky
Weeping willows fall to the ground
Crying their tears of sorrow.
Blast after blast
Color after color
Shapes of circles, cubes, falling stars
It makes you want to wish upon them
Hoping that every dream would come true.
They’re that beautiful.
It reminds you of love
Showing you the colorful walkway
Just for you to take the chance
To take his hand one more time before the time runs out
Boom! Boom! Boom!
The sky rumbles above you
Here’s the grand faunally exploding with colors
Hinting the answers to your question
Spreading them out in the sky
The colors fade
The stars reappear
Time to wish upon these one more time
And have another colorful night surround you.
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Literature
Just This Once
If I told you this just one instance
Will you fall back the same to me?
I’ve wanted this for so long
Counted down the hours and minutes
(I want it this much)
If I told you this just once
Will you run away and hide?
Leave me unanswered for the whole world to see?
I want to jump through these obstacles
But I don’t know if I can run through this brick wall
Shatter it into a million pieces
If I told you this once
Will you take my hand in return?
The decisions shouldn’t be an option
Because all I’ve wanted is you.
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Literature
The Rest Of Me
Let the light slowly fade out
Let the memories finally take a rest at the edge of the bed
Falling to the floor with the mess of life
You don't want this
You won't need this
You'll take it and keep it
With the rest of me.

Take the colors off your fingers
Erase with all the hope filled within you
Lay down the cloth you used to cover the wound
Let the words slip from your lips
You don't dream of this
You won't hold this
It's just some embarrassing figure you try to hide
It's just something of me.

Hide these sworn secrets
The best planned days where the sun still shines
I hate you
You hate me
You won't scream this back at me
Say these things that can touch the heart
Turn away from me
Walk, walk, walk, walk
Don't turn back..

                Pretend like this isn't happening...
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Literature
The Last Words
This can only take a few moments
Spread out the decision, the testimonies
Let the lost words left unsaid.
I've known for a while
I've thought I'd tell you now
Rip everything open
Trying to save the last fall you take
It's not my place to
It's not my say anymore
My words against yours
They don't work anymore
I've said this too many times to count
How sorry I am
How I wish there was some way to go back
I never wanted this to tear
I didn't want to break
But like glass falling
Everything shattered into a million pieces
This can only take a few more words
One last sentence to you from me
It's one last breath saved for the both of us
Hold my hand into yours
And I'm still sorry.
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Literature
Holding On
It enters my mind at the drop of the dime
Silencing my movements, my words
Taking me back earlier in life
It's a pulse I try to push away
The sincere thought that as made it's way back to the top
[Stop, stop, stop, listen]
All these colors have let themselves fade grey
Hinting that this all could end
That the solid ground you stand on is foiled
[Watch, watch, watch, quiet]
This bitter anger has again come forth
And I battle with staying a hold of everything I care for
Holding on just a little bit longer
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Literature
Breaking These Fine Walls Pt.
   He leaned against a pew, positioning himself so he was quite comfortable. "Do you read?"
   Lauren nodded, "Every chance I get. Do you?"
   "Very much the same for me. My father thinks it's so wonderful that I pick up books instead of burdening myself with other irrelevant things."
   She picked up the last piece of trash and threw it into her barrel. She never knew of Jason reading. He would seem to be the type of man who would lounge around all day, yelling at other's and making life more miserable or complicated. She had not known that he had a passion for books. Though, she couldn't tell if it was his passion or his fathers. So, she went on her business and set the barrel of garbage down by corner of the room, as she walked back, she found him looking off into the direction of the stairwell. "Does your father burden you with many of his ideal characteristics of a son?"
   Jason slowly turned his head so t
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Literature
Breaking These Fine Walls
  Lauren heard the sound of the organ playing as she cleaned her home, the church. The moon light shown through the green, red, yellow, and purple windows. Showing the Virgin Mary, and Jesus himself. She loved the windows, she thought they told stories about way back then. Before anything on this Earth had existed.
   She picked up little pieces of paper between the pews, her mind wondering on endless thoughts that would keep her up at night. Thoughts that were always written down in a journal, telling stories about love, destiny, and fate. Lauren wrote about mainly anything that popped into her mind. From tales of Queens and Kings, to tales of mystic fairy lands that held secrets at each fork in the rode.
   Jason watched her from afar. The mid-teen girl that cleaned the church for supper. He adored her, though half-heartedly didn't care for her in public. She was a nuisance to everyone in the church sometimes. She would come up with these wild
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Literature
Worries
I can feel the world's walls close in on my small space
The door no long exists in this black mess of night
My hands tremble for your skin
And my heart years to hear your voice
My tears run down my face
Where are you?
Fear surfaces and this anxiety takes place
I want to hold you
I want to hear you say you love me
Everything's okay
My wonders run in and out of my mind
Worries capture my body
I can't stay a hold of anything
All I wish to see is your face
Hold me, I love you so much.
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Literature
Run, Run, Run
Run, run, run
As you go by and by
Leave the old rags behind
Jump for freedom
Let the rise and fall of the music make it more sensational
Breathe in and take it all
Hold tightly, for the ride has just begun
Run, run, run
It's the fight between two bodies
Twirling around and around
Don't say, just touch
Your eyes look like pearls beneath the deep ocean seas
As mine come from the depths of hell
The passion has just torn from the skin of this body
Forcing and dragging you beneath
(Don't Stop)
Run, Run, Run
The scratches go beneath the surface
Sprucing out this certain red liquid from your body
Run, Run, Run
(Don't Stop)
Run, Run, Run
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Literature
Wake Up Sleeping Baby
It took this long to sing this part
Run around, and fall to the ground
Scream and shout
Fall back and watch the world fall beneath my feet
Shh....if no one knows
How could anyone find out?
Slip and slide
Down on your ass you go
Falling back on this black ice
Save me! Save me!
My words are like silent whispers in the wind
Gone before you hear them
And only touch the skin
Never sink in, never make marks
It took this long to see what's coming
After days, weeks, months of knowing
Turn around in circles
Take the last breath and let go!
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Back Home
It’s been so long since I could say
That I’ve truly been okay
I think about, I deserve the blame
Because what we talked about and what happened was the same
Through all the years
It’s hard to picture my face with any tears
But I was here awake so many times with you in mind
Regretting my new world while trying to find
A reason to take me back to you
To recapture everything left with you
If I could go back home
On my way back to you
Just to stand right here
Not knowing what to do
I’m lost here on my own
Looking back at you
Not knowing what to do
Turning, looking back at you
I’m thinking of your face
Do you ever think of mine?
I’m picturing you and me
Tell me what do you see?
If I could go back home
Would I still be on my own?

There’s been so much doubt alive
That’s when my insecurities strive
I’ve got a badge with a name
But being here never felt the same
I try to lose myself in these streets
Burying my tears beneath these sheets
To wa
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You Make Me
A heart, a beat
A smile, a breath
I’m falling, I’m sinking
I’m laughing, I’m crying
You make me, you break me
Now I’m dreaming more than ever before
Of a world beyond this one, heaven and hell
Unexplainable reasons make this true
I’m standing here, lying here, next to you

A hand, a pulse
A gasp, a sigh
I’m turning, I’m thinking
I’m reaching, I’m safe
You make me, you break me
Now I’m dreaming more than ever before
Of a world beyond this one, heaven and hell
Unexplainable reasons make this true
I’m standing here, lying here, next to you

A look, a movement
A drift, a daydream
I’m singing, I’m listening
I’m writing, I’m reading
You make me, you break me
Now I’m dreaming more than ever before
Of a world beyond this one, heaven and hell
Unexplainable reasons make this true
I’m standing here, lying here, next to you
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I'm too use to being around people and things to do...I'm too use to having to take care of things that the second I have a minute to breathe I feel like collapsing. It might be just wired into me, or maybe I'm just doing what I usually do. Who knows. Oh well, anyways, it's you and me tonight. I'm convinced that I will at least write something tonight! Whether it be this or an actual story or hell maybe even a free verse poem. Shit, I may be even able to figure out who "I" am. lol. Yeah right huh?

You want to know the truth though? I am a "Pretend" house wife.  I hate what I do, but I try to do my best at it. (This has nothing to do about my daughter...I LOVE HER!) My husband makes my life feel like a job and trying to get around that is the hardest. I make sure everything is in perfect fucking order for when he steps in the door. Make sure the house is in order, make sure I have exercised, showered, and too in order. I always think to myself...who lives like this? Though, I am sure once I have my degree I can get one step forward. I'm not saying he's a bad husband, I love him to death. He means the world to me, and I would never deny that....but sometimes I feel like I'm being judged with everything I do. Drives me nuts. And since this is my outlet...WTF...I should just say it right? I miss having a job. I miss "contributing" to our family we have made together. I hate that I make no actual "dollar" value for what I do! I know I do my part, but really no it doesn't feel like it. Not the way he puts it. Yeah, I do dishes, laundry, trash, clean...take care of our daughter...make sure the car is clean...really does the list end? lol. I still don't feel like I do "enough" Maybe this is a challenge I'm suppose to overcome. And hopefully I will overcome it. Maybe it all just takes time...

"Oh shit, shit.." Lol

-Maggie
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DimensionSeven Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2008
Hello, dear random deviant! :wave:
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jjuuhhaa Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2007
Hello :salute:
Thank you for the :+fav:
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You were tagged [link]
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Twilightdreamer245 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2007  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi =D

I tagged you! Bwahaha. Yeah, see the journal.

^^ Meep!
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Starartx Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank you. i like guitars too ^_^
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SKpunk Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2007
sup ivy
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jjuuhhaa Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2007
Hello :salute:
Thank you for the support :thanks:
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Thaaanks for the :+fav: :batman:!!!

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